Category: About ME

Fear and the Art of Choosing Courage

What’s a fear you’ve overcome — and how did you do it?

I love this question because fear shaped my entire life. 

My biggest fear was public perception and harsh critique. I waited so long to publish my first public facing book because of this.

It’s sad to say, but I am a people pleaser. I wanted opinions and feedback to be good, great, FIVE STARS. But you can’t expect that as an author, it’s unrealistic, and I knew this. The mere idea of someone thinking, I’m annoying or a bad writer scared the fuck out of me.

I was scared of how they’d see me once I started pushing my books and marketing. In my mind, ANNOYING THEM! It’s a trait I am trying to grow out of at my big age of 38. I was so concerned with how I’d be perceived that I stood in the way of my own growth. This fear held me back from a lot. It kept me safe and comfortable but dissatisfied.

I published my first book quietly, but I still did it! I overcame my polarizing fear of criticism and perception.

I did this by choosing courage.

Courage to succeed, fail, be seen, heard, and rejected! I choose courage before I press publish on each new chapter. I choose courage with each and every edit. I choose to be courageous because little me deserves to be an author.

Courage is my daily affirmation. As a Black, bisexual woman I speak it the very moment I step outside. I choose to be brave and courageous for the rest of my life. The alternative is no longer an option.

To Live and Die: An Authors Take

What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life?

I write Paranormal Romance for a living and vampires are my specialty. Because of this, I tend to think about immortality more than anyone should. The idea of living an extremely long life, scares me. Beyond technological wonders and scientific discoveries, what else is there? War? Civil unrest? Cataclysmic events? Famine?
I know this shit sounds dreary, but it’s worth thinking about. Living a long life sounds cool and fun until they tell you, ‘guess what? The suns got about thirty days left’. Or, any and all fresh water sources have been compromised. Orrrrrr. Fucking hell, CORDYCEPS!!!! (They are real btw) I tumbled and fell headfirst down a rabbit hole and now I’m scared of something else. Thanks Last of Us! I thought that shit was FAKE!
Anyway, to answer simply, no, I don’t think I’d like to live for 200+ years. The world is too fucked up and Mother Nature is dying.
No thanks!

Guess what? I’m Giving Away My Book For Free!!

Hello! Happy Bisexual Visibility Day and happy Fall Equinox! This is the day I’ve been waiting for since summer started. I’m sure most of you know how much I hate May-August, especially living in a desert town. I can’t stand it. Fiery red and goldenrod leaves are what I need. A cool night with a hot cup of cider and a good smutty book does wonders for my mental state.
There is nothing I love more than a cloudy morning and the promise of rain. And in celebration of this wonderful seasonal change, I have decided to set up a new promotion for my book, The Huntsman and The Fox, which is FREE for a limited time on the zon. If you’re ever in the mood for some cozy MM paranormal romance, then go ahead and download it. Save it for later, that’s what I do.
Anyway, thank you for your time and continued support. Y’all are awesome, stay great humans!

This Needs To Be Said!

Sinners! Yes, the movie. I know it’s not a book, but this is my website, and I can write whatever I want. And right now, I’m gonna talk about this immaculate piece of media. Shot on actual film, it is deep, beautiful, perfect, and everything I needed. Ryan has catapulted into genius territory. He will be in the same conversation as Lee, QT, Scorsese, and Spielberg. His work has a soul, and I find myself missing the Sinner experience so much that I will pay for another ticket in three days. I need more of this. More cinema with heart and teeth. More movie magic! And more Black folks on screen! Everyone knows about my vampire obsession. It was only natural that I go see it. I was on board since they announced Ryan’s plans for this film, and here we are.

I figured it’d be special but i never thoughtt he’d exchant my ass. Sinners is a gut punch of a film and worth every god damn cent spent. It’s profound and painfully relevant. Sinners will be talked about for a while, and I will be the one doin’ the talking. Five stars all around! Cast, crew, and music! 100/100 A+!

It Feels Sooo Good To Be Baaaack!

Well! What a month March was. First, let me say this: I didn’t intentionally vanish. I lost my ac adapter for my laptop! I had nothing and could do nothing for three whole weeks. And I was miserable. No writing, no posting, nothing. Okay, that’s a lie; I brainstormed and wrote on my phone. Short stories (ones that never see the light of day), but stories I had fun writing.
Anything pertaining to PWAPF or blogs, however, was on hold. Everything is on my computer. With zero storage left on my device, I don’t have IG or WP on it. Obligatory work apps take up a lot of space on my phone. So, I was stuck for weeks and loathed every minute of it. But WE ARE BACK, and I hope to push out a new chapter on Tuesday.

My Day My Way

Daily writing prompt
Describe your most ideal day from beginning to end.
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I wake up and brush teeth cause no one likes stank morning breath. After I’ve scrubbed my mouthbones and gargled with hellfire (yellow Listerine), I make tea and eat a balanced breakfast. Four eggs, sourdough bread with extra butter, and some form of sugar.
When I’m fat(er) and happy, I’ll sit down to write and bang out 5k. With me feeling smarter than everyone else (because I didn’t misspell narrcisssstic the first time) I watch a movie.
Mind you, choosing a film will take from ten to eighty minutes, depending on my mood. I loveeeeee movies so this isn’t anything new. By 2 I’m laughing, crying, or reciting lines. Possibly all three because I’m watching Tombstone for the 40th time.
At around 5 I log into Roblox or COD Warfare. Now folks, here’s where time gets really tricky. From the moment I load up or choose a game time begins to sprint. We’re not playing with regular, excruciatingly long work days here. Noooooo, these are video game hours so, one hour is actually ten minutes.
At 12 am I look at the clock and shout, “Yo what the fuck! It was just five!”
And thus ends a beautiful day where I do what I want and when!

Keep On Keeping On

This month didn’t begin how I’d hoped. Before the election, I was filled with anxiety and now, I am trying to pick myself up. I am trying to write, trying to live, trying not to dwell on the future. It is hard! As a Black queer woman, I am TRYING to find peace while I stand in the aftermath.
This will be a rough four years and I don’t know what lay ahead. I can only hope the universe will see fit to align and intervene. This can not be it. I have faith in humanity and in our community but I am allowed a cynical moment. We are allowed to be angry with EVERYONE!
While the silver lining may not be within reach I must believe it is there. I have to keep my eyes on the horizon. This is not toxic positivity bullshit. I am not preaching, I am talking myself into power and strength. Which I, as an individual, need so very badly. I tend to lean toward pessimism but I don’t want to be that person right now. I can’t afford to think as I always do.
As I move forward in a nation divided I can only TRY MY FUCKING BEST to get along the only way I know how…
I will write word, after word, after word, until I make myself smile.

Please Donate to Fire Relief Funds: If You Cn’t help financially, Please Post links.

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Two of my family members have lost their homes due to the Los Angeles fires, so I will spread the word about donating. If you can, even a dollar will help those in need. Families are suffering and have been left with nothing. If you can’t, post links to foundations and organizations. I posted links to a few sites helping with the fire relief funds. Every post and penny counts. Humans and animals are in need tonight. Even if you can’t give, just repost, and tell others. There are organizations all over helping out. Thank you for your time and effort.

The Season to Smile!!

Welcome to fall and Libra season! It’s only the best time of year for those who love spooky seasons, torrential weather, annnnd darkness! I am a moonchild and love nocturnal life. I have said this before, but it requires repeating, I love dusk. I love sunsets and crackling fires. I feel at home beneath the stars and a full hunter’s moon. Mother Luna is my bestie!

So, it comes as no surprise that I hate long days. This time of year is for US!