Fear, My Best Buddy!

For years and years annnnnd years, I’ve let fear run amok. It’s controlled many parts of my life, I threw away huuuuge opportunities because of such cowardice. My lack of spine, and lack of faith in self! I let doubts and impending criticism hold me back from sooo much.
But sis, bro, them!I am so over it. I have been a writer for seventeen long arse years. I have written scripts, poetry and scribbled ideas on napkins, journals and receipts. I have finished 16 MS! No one, has read so much as a word. Not one person, why? Cause I scarwed, or was. I was terrified of someone saying, “yo, this is garbage.” After I’ve just spent months pouring my whole soul into 120k words.
I was polarized and mortified by the mere thought of criticism. Not that I think I’m above it, absolutely not. No, it’s someone looking at my work and thinking I’m no good, cause I wanna be good, I wanna be a published author. And, I think I’m good, I do. I think I’ve got a knack for it, but what if someone disagrees?! That’s the scary part. Thing is, with age, I’ve grown less concerned with what others think of me, what I wear, or how I choose to live my life. For the life of me, I can’t find those same set of balls when it comes to writing.
Letting strangers read what I’ve written is exposing! I think that’s what it boils down to. People get to see what’s inside my dark, dank, attic which some would call a brain. It strips me bare for all to see, and perhaps that’s what I’m fearful of most. But by gods of Olympus, I’m sick of it y’all, I am done! Ya girl is fresh out of excuses. If I want people to read what I have, even ten sets of eyes, I will mush on! I want someone to see this world full of vampires and demons that reside in my head for weeks on end.
I feel it’s time you know, to throw caution to the wind and say, F it! Some will hate it, I am not delusional about this, there will be folks who will give it one star. But, that comes with the territory. Life as a storyteller isn’t easy, but if I can write it, I can publish it.

That One Girl In the Dark…

As far back as I can remember, I’ve had this love for inky gloomy things. I can’t recall a time where I wasn’t captivated by dark and creepy. Along with being a writer, I am also a cinephile (film fanatic). At about eleven years old I saw my first vampire film, Blade.

And from then on, it got worse, I saw Interview with a Vampire and so on. But before that, I was heavy into films which were on the darker side. Rated R, bloody and visceral. Imagine an eight year old telling you, their favorite movie is Goodfellas. At age ten, I made certain to let everyone know I saw Fight Club and would get a tattoo of Brad Pitt on my arm.

That never happened.lol

Anyway, after a while I started searching for books along the same lines. At seventeen, I stumbled upon Katie MaCalister and that’s how I got acquainted with adult novels. Pretty much from there it all went down hill. My Paranormal Romance obsession burned out of control! Tons of titles from that genre followed and by various authors.

Then the day came where I said, “you know what, I can do this.I can write this…I wanna write this.” Books that are on the darker side I often pledge loyalty to. Novels that keep the nasty, reckless and crazy coming are *chefs kiss*

I’m a wee bit of a messy writer too, cause drama, and sordid behaviors are deeply rooted into my stuff.The worlds and characters I scribble about aren’t for thinned skinned or faint of heart.

Moments may get uncomfy, and you’ll read things you don’t like. But, there is a theme at play…love conquers all! I don’t mean to sound so cliche, but it’s true. I make sure to showcase this over and over again.

CAUSE I’M A HOPLESS ROMANTIC!

But one who also writes about demons, dead bodies and excessive amounts of sex.

This is the part where I talk about me, right?

Okay so, this is my first post annnnd I can’t even lie, ya girl is nervous. I’m listening to Panic at the Disco just to get me going. lol Brendon Urie is a frikin gem. Any who, hiiii I am J.T. Frost! An aspiring author, not writer, cause I AM A WRITER.

That’s what this blog is all about, since I was nine years old, I had a jones in my bones to tell a story. And to my surprise, that desire hasn’t gone anywhere, in fact, it’s only grown more profound. There is nothing like creating a new world, breathing life into characters that would otherwise never exist. My imagination is a passport, it takes me any and everywhere I wish to go. There isn’t a border in sight and no boundaries, unlike the real world. Bleh!

For years -and I cannot stress this enough- years, my heads been in the clouds. Reading and writing were my strengths in grade school, and so on. Words and I have a strong healthy relationship! Can’t live without em’, and I’d be lost in an infinite abyss if I couldn’t read a book. Becoming an author was never my plan. Alas, here we are, I am taking a leap into the unknown. Throwing all caution…or anxiety to the wind! I’m rolling the dice and betting on seven, honey! Never been much of a gambler, but I figure why not. We only miss the chances we never take… or something like that.

On to the good stuff, like what it is I dabble in. And by dabble I mean spend every waking moment writing. Drrrruuum Rooooollll, PARANORMAL ROMANCE! Oooo sexy, scary, bloody and dark stuff. Okay I knowwww they’re full of tropey tid-bits half the time. But what are love stories, if not tropetastic…you get it.

Paranormal Romance is my ten and two. My comfort zone, my niche and my little corner of hell. Lets get real here for a second, okay, just a little. In the literary world there is a lack of representation for those of us who enjoy the creepy, the wild, and the sexy. Those of us who enjoy, Sci-fi, fantasy and historical romance, there’s not much out there for POC! I am a plus-sized, short, black woman who has committed her life to reading these genres. I’ve flipped through countless paperbacks on the NYTBS list. You wanna know something? Not a one looked like me, not a single supernatural love interest was a black, fat girl with glasses and curls. And you know what? I never found it, maybe I missed an author who knows, but I started writing what I wanted to read.

Black women in powerful positions, black women loved and adored recklessly by that one guy with fangs who may or may not be hot. But I digress, vampires, witches and demons have always caught my interest. And I wanted to see women like me, be the one who saves the day or gets the guy. And most of all, females (cause they aren’t human) vampires of collloorrr! Black vampires who are not the gosh darn villain! Okay, enough with that! Oh but hold up, hold on now, Imma let you know something. My characters are flawed honey, their lives are twisted, tough and deep. But, these are MOST DEFINITELY love stories!

I enjoy nasty, angst riddled scenes heavy with emotion. Whether happy or sad… you gon’ feel it. Couples that can stay on top through the good, bad and dirty is the theme so to speak. (PATD line) However, these women (females) aren’t inherently bad, just products of their environment. Some are stricken with constant introspection. My books cover the beautiful and brutal parts of love for an old damned immortal soul. And oh yeah, a lot of sex… I mean tons. It’s absurd how much sex I’ve managed to shove into these novels. I’m almost ashamed… almost. lol With that said, this blog will be dedicated to my WIP and what’s to come! I will introduce main characters via candid interviews, and hopefully at least one of y’all will like it. If you made it this far honey, thank you for sparing a moment to read my ramblings! And, have a wonderful day!